It will never be the same again, but why?

Looking at the picture (or pictures), you don't think I am writing about social issues, do you? For days I had been cracking my head trying to pen down something related to media influence. Yet, I can't do it. The reason behind it, maybe because I don't think it affected me at all. Badly, is what I mean.

I grow up in a parents-are-teachers family. I was restricted to do a lot of things when I was with parents. We are not even allowed to talk much during meals. The only thing I enjoy being with my family, other than the precious moment they listen to me, is the TV time. I got used to watching TV when I was doing my homework, when I was talking on the phone, when I was eating. (Yes, sometimes my mom watched with me through the sliding glass door which separated the dining room and the living "TV" room.) That's when my dad yelled at me and my mom, also the only thing that would makes him mad at us, at the same time.

To tell the truth, I am a TV and movies addict. Things that I do now, mostly are related to the box and the silver screen. I watch at least a movie a week (movie freak and I am talking about going to the theatre, spending a few bucks for the ticket, ahemm......) and I finish a series in 1 day time (I just finished House MD Season 4 when I started this). Oh yes, this is the first BAD thing about this popular TV - it wastes a lot of time. Time that we could utilize better instead of sitting still in front of the TV and taking snacks that eventually makes you grow horizontally. How lucky I am as now I stop growing and gaining weight for this activity. My usually sleepless night and unpredictable stressful tasks had washed away the fat and stopped me from gaining my chubbiness (yes my face, at least). Just imagine, how's life without Dr. House and vampires who are cute and don't feed on human blood?

Wonder why I have put up this picture for this title? Ha, weird isn't it? Those are my favourite movies so far. Favourite as in I still will spend some time watching it over and over again and never get bored. There must be reasons behind WASTING my TIME. I have had BAD things GROWING in me because of too much dramas and love-hate romance, like a tumor that sticks hard in my brain. Besides drooling for old old guys (yes really old but I prefer MATURED and think that it's the BEST word for them) such as Hugh Laurie (better known as House), Robert Downey Jr. (after the Ironman I was in a long stretch of dizziness for him) and Daniel Craig (don't know why I didn't like him in his first Bond movie but was so eager to go for Quantum of Solace), I spent around 3 hours per day for dramas (time for me to breathe) besides my X-BOXing time. Furthermore when I was really attracted to something, I got really stimulated to spend the money - Yeah, donating OR investing huge amount of money for the DVDs, original books, collectibles and even magazines. However, think about it, does this all change my inner-self? I mean, BADLY?

I had always argued with my philosophical dad. He is always backing up the theory (or pure discrimination) that this TV had screwed up a lot of teenagers out there. According to him, the robbery, snatch thieves, illegal midnight race that kills, human-trafficking, prostitution, drugs abuse and even teenagers falling crazily in love are due to the mass influence of the thing called TV. His thoughts, which I believe, relates to the phrase of Monkey sees, Monkey learns. Yeah, we are all monkeys, remember? (Based on ancient grandpa-stories). On the other hand, I always have the opposite stance that debates and defies. To me, media is the vicodin for people who need to kill the boring pain. Do not overdose else it causes brain damage (unable to do time management, failing anger management, worship people who looks good but never give a damn to life, mimicking the superhero who jumped from the top of the Empire State building). It's hazardous enough, no?

I do not want to comment about myself as religious follower of movie-ism but at least, I choose to absorb. The estacy-like idol-loving acts are just the dessert for my uneventful life and it doesn't hurt. Additionally, the motivation that I've got from the movies had brought my consciousness back when I was drowned in the misery of depressing, hating and self-destruction.

Those are the posters for my favourite movies of all-time. Of course the best for me is The Shawshank Redemption, adaptation from a Stephen King's 10-page story. I could clearly remember the first time (night) I watched the movie in the old living room using the old TV, when I was a primary school kid. Sometimes I wonder why I could ever understand the meaning of the movie had highlighted. It's about the hope and freedom that eventually will free your mind and keep you alive. (I'm not hinting that I am a genius that I can understand that even I was that young.) It is the Andy Dufresne's fighting spirit that motivates me the most. The way he believes in hope when everybody doesn't. The persistence that he possessed to fight for what he deserved and defied the odd.

I hope this theme could be continued - further convinced the elders that media doesn't provoke the evil to rise in teenagers but encouraged the young one's to search for the soul whenever they watch a movie, dramas or even listening to a song. I bet people are laughing at me now, laughing at my naivety of being shallow looking at the influence of media. Yes there are so many bad things that happened because of this, but why does a teenager so easy to change? To contaminate their brain and soul? Where, are the parents, to lead, advice and care?

We are human and we do have the choice to make. To be good or bad, is your choice.

I am done teaching the Soul-searching class and demonstrating the parents' irresponsibility. (I think this writing had side-tracked, a little.)

Bear with the bitter me.
Signing off now......